It's nearly 3 weeks since I've written. And I am feeling the gap. You wouldn't think that 5 minutes of pausing wouldn't be such an apparent impact - at least I didn't - but 3 weeks removed from writing is starting to feel like simultaneously missing a part of my world AND starting over - jumping that very first hurdle to write.
I don't like it. And there have been some great prompts the past few weeks, so with out of order and very late fashion, I am going to catch up. Starting with this past week - which is not late yet.
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Exhale.
When I think of exhaling, I think of what happens at the end of a big decision. A tense moment. This week has given me lots of reasons to reflect on some of the biggest in my life. Choosing where I went to college (Anchor Down - proud Commodore here!) Choosing to say yes to the man who asked me to spend the rest of my life with him. CHoosing to wait until that man was forced to face down the reality of his affair. Choosing not to fight him in court. Choosing to take the path of grace - for peace, for stability, for the relationship I dream he can have with my kiddos. Choosing to forgive. Choosing to believe there is a new path for me. Choosing to ask an old friend to meet me for an afternoon - wondering if it might turn into something more than a one time meet up. (It did). I sit here today and think of these choices - the paths I've taken - and I can exhale. With ease. For while they were not all easy choices, I know in my heart they were the right ones. I sleep easy at night without these weighing on my heart. I can stop. Breathe, and look toward the nezt step. The next tough choice, and while I might hold my breath when I'm making it, too, I pray that after it's done, I can sit back, exhale, and know without a doubt that I would make it again. That I can be certain I chose wisely. And I can breathe deeply with joy.
Stop.
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So much exhaling you've had to do but it's great to see that after you've exhaled, you've inhaled such great things like forgiveness. That's the key, that after we've exhaled we inhaled all the good things God offers. :)
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ReplyDeleteOf course I’m going to make this post about baseball. People think that exhaling doesn’t have any significance when it comes to the sport of baseball. There’s so much down time during the course of a normal game that worrying about breathing and especially exhaling is an afterthought. But I guarantee you that every MLB player has gotten exhaling down. Just watch them. Before throwing a pitch: exhale. Before stepping in the box: exhale. Before a pitch is thrown while a player is in the field: exhale. The best players are the ones that can relax during the games most intense situations. Relaxed muscles are quick muscles and in the game of baseball, quickness is more important than brute strength. Exhaling properly is the key to that relaxation and therefore the key to success to a certain extent. There is a reason why the first thing I tell a struggling pitcher as a coach is, “deep breath, slow exhale.” The mind will always appreciate a good exhale.
Stop.
Sounds like it was a good week for you to write! I am happy you sleep easy at night and don't have regrets from the potential ugly that you could have chose instead. God is so amazing and He works in all of our lives, even when we don't see it at the time. All those struggles help us solidify who we are in His grace and become comfortable with what we are and where we are. Hopefully you can muster up the time to stick with us! We miss you in the party's! ((jhugs)) friend!
ReplyDeleteLots of exhaling! Isn't it great that He collects our tears, our breaths, our every single thought so that if we give it up to HIM, he can hold it all in His arms and keep it safe for us!
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