It's the actual Five Minute Friday (of course late. Nothing new to see here). This month it's in a series of 31 days of Five Minute Fridays. Find all of those posts at Kate's place. You can find all mine here.
CARE.
The thing I've learned in the past 6 years is that just because you care about something doesn't mean someone else will care about the same thing. No matter how hard you wish they will get engaged. No matter how desperately you plead with them. Even if they used to care about it. You can only choose for you. And they can only choose for them. And if you used to be on the same page with caring about something and now you are not, there is nothing that hurts more than being on the caring side, watching the one you love stare you straight in the eye and tell you they don't care anymore.
Except perhaps when you ask them why and they give you some made up false sounding reason, or better yet a list of "things you could fix that will make them care again" ... and then you learn the truth. That all the reasons were lies, and the real reason is your worst nightmare.
6 years later, I finally don't care so much. But I have not yet hit the point where I don't care - where it doesn't hurt. Maybe someday that wound will be entirely healed. For now, I am thankful that it hurts less every day, and that both grace and forgiveness despite the hurt - have carried me every day.
STOP.
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